I’m the biggest mess tonight. Thinking about that first night, it seems forever ago. A lot has changed, I haven’t worn that Twerk shirt in months. The second time was…well whatever that was.
It upsets me deeply that I never got to say goodbye. You were the most important person of my life this year and then one day you were here and then you were gone. I miss you being here. I miss the dinners. I miss the drinks. I miss your face. I miss the walk from Kings Cross. I miss you apologetic smile. I miss confessions of a shopaholic. I miss harry potter. I miss when Bart sold his soul. I miss the budget. I miss your enthusiasm about things I never thought about or understood. I miss that you were the biggest motivator I needed. I miss how proud you were of me. I miss you laugh. I miss you. I miss YOU. I want you back and I would do anything to have you back.
I never realised how much I cared until you were completely taken away from me, I was very confused and blind at the beginning.
There’s nothing I can do.